I Cannot Understand It

But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners. ~Romans 5:8

I cannot wrapped my head around the love God has for me.  That through time and beyond what I can understand, He sent His Son to die for me.  Knowing full well the horrible things I would do and think.  Yet, He choose to do it.  I don't get it.

I spent most of yesterday pondering why does God love me.  Why does He not give up on me?  I can't answer my own questions.  It's too much for me.  He has humbled me in such a way that all of me, myself, has been shattered.  He still is with me.  He hasn't left.  He hasn't gave up.  He still loves.  Why?

The real struggle?  He knows my future.  He knows exactly how, when, what...I will do or not do.  When I will fail again.  Yet, He STILL loves me.  How can this be?  He is a God who loves with a love that no one can comprehend.  He gives grace and mercy and blessings to me when I SO don't deserve it.

All I can do is thank Him.  Thank Him for being generous and loving.  Ask that He never stops.  I will never understand, at least fully why, but I accept it.

Dean