tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-84397399646945461662024-02-08T07:29:12.351-08:00The Heart of a ManUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8439739964694546166.post-27713629809134683762018-04-02T23:48:00.000-07:002018-04-02T23:48:18.327-07:00When I Don't Know<i><span class="text Isa-55-8" id="en-NKJV-18749" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; position: relative;">“For My thoughts <span style="box-sizing: border-box;">are</span> not your thoughts,</span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;" /><span class="text Isa-55-8" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; position: relative;">Nor <span style="box-sizing: border-box;">are</span> your ways My ways,” says the <span class="small-caps" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; font-variant-caps: small-caps; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal;">Lord</span>.</span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;" /><span class="text Isa-55-9" id="en-NKJV-18750" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; position: relative;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; display: block; font-family: Arial; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; left: -4.4em; line-height: 22px; position: absolute; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">9 </span>“For <span style="box-sizing: border-box;">as</span> the heavens are higher than the earth,</span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;" /><span class="text Isa-55-9" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; position: relative;">So are My ways higher than your ways,</span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;" /><span class="text Isa-55-9" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; position: relative;">And My thoughts than your thoughts."</span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">When everything was over, several of the top competitors and me wanted to change the rule about this snow. We noticed at the top of the ramp, leaders were meeting and making decisions on the rule or something else. Whispers continued to happen; but we could not figure out what they were saying. Over and over and over we tried to understand, but never made out what the conversation was really about or what was the final decision.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">I woke up pondering this dream. I wondered what did it really mean. Then it hit me...God. I have been on a bit of a journey. One with extremely rough seas, but for good reason. One that now has some calmer seas. And one that is far from over, even now. I have often asked God, why? or what now?; but He doesn't really give me any direct answers. Only that I don't need to know.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">That's a hard pill to swallow...not knowing. I am not typically a planner, but I do like to have an idea of what's ahead, even if it is just a big picture kind of idea. Not this time. God is teaching. He is teaching me total, absolute, 100% dependence upon Him and Him alone. Anytime I try to move outside of that, He brings me to a place where I simply do not know. And all the while, He says...MY ways are not your ways; MY thoughts are not your thoughts. Son, I have a plan. It is perfect. Just trust ME...alone. No one else, not even yourself. My grace and love are sufficient and perfect for you.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">Dean</span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8439739964694546166.post-43242980778564271242018-03-24T19:33:00.003-07:002018-03-24T19:36:12.378-07:00The One that is Close<i>"<span style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">The</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> </span><span class="small-caps" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">Lord</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">hears his people when they call to him for help.</span></i><br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8439739964694546166.post-67197313745812576742018-03-22T14:16:00.002-07:002018-03-22T14:16:13.196-07:00It's No Secret<i>"<span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.</span></i><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><i>"</i> ~Matthew 6:33</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">At the beginning of this year, I found this verse, again. It has become my verse for the year. To seek God's kingdom and His righteousness before all else...that is my heart's cry.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">You see, it's no secret to how to make life good, even great. God lays it all out. Clearly. Go after Him, with everything you have, <b><i>all</i></b> of you. Hold no place and no thing back. Every nook and cranny of your life. Even the dark, bad places...give it to Him. Chase after Him. Then, and only then, everything else will come.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">I have spent over 48 years doing it all wrong. I thought, I got this. Do a few rules, attend some church...I'm good. Hey, even rely on people to help from time to time. I was wrong, so very wrong. There is only One who can help with life. Only One who guides with a love that defies understanding. Until I submitted to Him, to Papa God, nothing made sense. Nothing else worked!</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">Now, you may ask, submit? Really? I'm my own person you say. Here's the rub, whether you realize it or not, you are submitting to an authority in your life. If it isn't God, well, it's the devil. Plain and simple. The devil...is a liar. A really big liar. It's the wrong authority to submit to, as I can testify to personally.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">So how exactly do I submit to God??? Well, again, it's no secret. For me, I had to <b><i>make </i></b>the time to spend with Him. And I mean time. Real, quality, long time. Time that isn't rushed. See, you can spend time with your spouse, your kids, yourself, your hobbies, your phone, your tv, your internet; but you won't spend time with your God. All the while, wondering, why is life so hard. It's a relationship and any good relationship needs time together. Good time together. For me, that means every night, for a least an hour. I don't just go through motions anymore. This is where I talk, I read, <b><i>I listen</i></b> with Papa God.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">Get before a God who loves you. Get on your knees in prayer. Dig deep into His word. Spend the time. I promise, it <b><i>will </i></b>pay off, especially when life's storms hit hard. And as far as everything else goes??? It will be added to you.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">Dean</span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8439739964694546166.post-45650606766348336142018-03-22T05:54:00.001-07:002018-03-22T05:54:01.825-07:00New<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">"</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">For I am about to do something new.</span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">The hardest part for me is letting the old go, of releasing it. Perhaps some of it is fear. Fear that I won't know what to do when I have the new. Fear that somehow people won't like me as this new person. Other times, it's the control. With my old, I had, (or so I thought), control over my life. I was comfortable. When new comes, often, at first, things are out of control. Reality has shifted and now what do I do.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">Here's the great news! We aren't alone. God has designed and carved out those rivers in the dry wasteland. HE is there. HE is here. In the thick of it, helping us. And, it IS, it WILL be awesome!!!</span></span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8439739964694546166.post-5667390236495422612018-03-21T04:48:00.001-07:002018-03-21T04:52:30.430-07:00I Thank<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span class="text Isa-61-3" id="en-NKJV-18847" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;"><i>"To console those who mourn in Zion,</i></span><i><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="text Isa-61-3" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">To give them beauty for ashes,</span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="text Isa-61-3" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">The oil of joy for mourning,</span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="text Isa-61-3" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;</span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="text Isa-61-3" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">That they may be called trees of righteousness,</span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box;" /><span class="text Isa-61-3" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">The planting of the <span class="small-caps" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; font-variant-caps: small-caps; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal;">Lord</span>, that He may be glorified.” </span></i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">This is what God has spoken to me today. He is giving beauty out of the ashes of my burnt and broken places. He is given me joy instead of mourning. He has given me much to praise him over the heaviness of my past.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">Being humble before a God that knows you is tough. Tough, but so very worth the time to push through it. I know, without doubt, He loves me. I know, without doubt, He restores everything broken. I know, without doubt, He heals all wounds. Praise to God for His mercy and grace!</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">I thank Him for the process. I thank Him for the pull. I thank Him for never, ever, ever, EVER giving up on this humble man.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">God, Papa God, is so very good. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;">I cannot wrapped my head around the love God has for me. That through time and beyond what I can understand, He sent His Son to die for me. Knowing full well the horrible things I would do and think. Yet, He choose to do it. I don't get it.</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;">I spent most of yesterday pondering why does God love me. Why does He not give up on me? I can't answer my own questions. It's too much for me. He has humbled me in such a way that all of me, myself, has been shattered. He still is with me. He hasn't left. He hasn't gave up. He still loves. Why?</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;">The real struggle? He knows my future. He knows exactly how, when, what...I will do or not do. When I will fail again. Yet, He <i><b>STILL </b></i>loves me. How can this be? He is a God who loves with a love that no one can comprehend. He gives grace and mercy and blessings to me when I <i><b>SO </b></i>don't deserve it.</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;">All I can do is thank Him. Thank Him for being generous and loving. Ask that He never stops. I will never understand, at least fully why, but I accept it.</span></span><br />
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</span><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-size: large;">Dea</span><span style="font-size: large;">n</span></span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8439739964694546166.post-14374517005890285842018-03-19T06:52:00.001-07:002018-04-02T23:49:49.958-07:00Broken Spirit<span style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129;"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><i>The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.</i> ~Psalm 51:17</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">God is dealing with me. This shouldn't be a surprise to me. I asked Him to help me. I just didn't want to pick up the phone and listen when He called.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I struggle. I struggle as a man, a real man. I allowed things into my life that have no business there. Some have resided for well over three decades. Others are much more recent. I am no longer allowing residence in my life to these destructive things. Today...with God's grace, is eviction day.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">What I have allowed into my mind changed my behavior. It changed the way I perceived reality. It affect me. It affect those around me. Those things allowed my past to keep me broken. Keep me shackled. Keep me in pain.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">God does not want that from me. He wants my broken places and my hurt from my past healed and redeemed; for good, forever.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I make no conclusions that this is going to be easy or quick; although I do believe God can work very quickly. I know I <b><i>MUST </i></b>allow Him to cleanse me. I must let Him work, in His time. I submit to God and all He has for me.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I ask as you read, pray. Pray that His voice never leaves my heart and my mind.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">I am learning you can't do this alone. This thing called life. You <b><i>HAVE </i></b>to ask for help. We were never put here to walk the tough roads alone. I also am learning that you can't keep things hidden. That God wants the dirty and dark brought to the Light. That's the only way healing happens. You have to have those around you to hold you accountable; other men who will ask you the hard questions. They are sent from God. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Ultimately, I have learned this: God <b><i>DOES </i></b>listen, every..single..time. Keep crying out. Keep praying. He hears and <b><i>IS </i></b>working. And that I'm loved.</span></span><br />
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